Hungry

My feet were the first thing to regain feeling. It started with a tiny prick then went into a full on tingle. As the feeling went back into my legs my eyes finally opened. As I looked around the room, confusion turned into terror as I had no idea where I was nor any memory that had happened previous to get to where I was. My last memory: walking down the baking isle looking for brownie mix. I remember seeing the double chocolate mix on sale so I opted for that. I saw 300 calories per one serving on the back and felt remorse but still grabbed it anyway. Now looking around the room my brownies were gone and the empty box lay lifeless on the ground. The man in the corner was eating the last one and my stomach was grumbling. "Fuck him" I thought.

Breakdown

Across the border to your heart
Between the bridges of the lonely soul
the waves lap and the oceans swells
like the hands of our foes
place me at the borderline
one foot in one foot out
but something tells me, I'm here to stay

don't ask me now
I have no answer
ask me later
nothing's changed
leave me this open pasture
I'll have to mull it over

(Chorus)

breakdown, breakdown
your body lives beneath the ground
breakdown, breakdown
spirits move when you are down
breakdown, breakdown
I'll wake you when this storm is over

(another verse to come)

Wild Recap

For the past two weeks I have been reading the book "Wild" by Cheryl Strayed. The book is about a woman who hikes the Pacific Crest Trail after her mother dies at 42 after a 2 month battle with cancer. After her mother's death her family becomes estranged, her young marriage falls apart and she becomes dangerously close to an addiction with heroin. At this point she picks up a book standing in a checkout line that would change her life completely. It was titled "The Pacific Crest Trail Volume I: California". 2 months later, she was starting off in the Mojavi Desert embarcking on a three month journey taking her 2,663 miles up the west coast to the Bridge of Gods in Washington. With thirty pages left, Cheryl is in Oregon looking into Crater Lake. Crater Lake used to be a mountain. Mount Mazama, it was called. 7,700 years ago Mount Mazama blew up in the largest explosive eruption in the cascade Range in over a million years. In the wake of this destruction, 500,000 square miles were covered in ash. Crater Lake today, it is one of the most beautiful lakes in North America. Strayed recounts this sight."This was once Mazama, I kept reminding myself. This was once a mountain that stood nearly 12,000 feet tall and then had its heart removed. This was once a wasteland of lava and pumice and ash. This was once an empty bowl. They simply were not there anymore. There was only the stillness and silence of that water: what a mountain and a wasteland and an empty bowl turned into after the healing began." This quote essentially sums up the book. Cheryl is not only talking about Mount Mazama, but is talking about herself. Her journey stripped her of her emotions allowing her to grow into a peaceful state of being not unlike that of Crater Lake.

Untitled (at the moment)

You'll never find what your looking for if you never over turn that rock
Never know whose coming for you if you would just ignore that knock
You're rolling around, in these familiar grounds, never straying from your path
you look at me with those causeless eyes asking "what do i do now?"
blink once and blink one more time, then turn off your thoughts
look around you with a new pair eyes and you will be surprised

(Chorus)

Cause when its gone, trust me its gone and when daylight comes then you will the hangover will be ruthless
you've been hanging around, for way to long, and you're feet cant stand it anymore, so get up get moving

so get up, get up
get out of this town
get up get up
get out of this town

the musics playing other places that you don't seem to look
feel the beat beneath your feet and rhythm in your soul
the fish are jumping we are thumping come on don't be shy
once you let it then you will learn how to fly
so don't walk with your head  turned down, you'll miss out on life
take the world in the palm of your hand there's no need to think twice

(Chorus)

Cause when its gone, trust me its gone and when the daylight comes then you will the hangover will be ruthless
you've been hanging around, for way to long, and you're feet can't stand it anymore, so get up get moving

so get up, get up
get out of this town
get up, get up
and get out of this town